Case of the Cwazies

I feel guilt every time I bite into an orange or see something I enjoy like the Edmonton Oilers playing in the playoffs. I think it was supposed to me and my little buddy watching them together. And I think he will never taste how juicy and fulfilling an orange is. So I experience guilt that I get to do these things without him. I'm not sure if this will ever go away. But then I think of his mother in how she always wanted a child from the time she was little and how she must be feeling. So I need to be good to myself and experience life so I can be here for her. Not only that Caius loved being weird- we used to always ask him "do you have a case of the cwazies?". This is where he would look at anything and laugh and boy did he have a laugh . He would also jump and twist and smile. Never anything dangerous just quirky faces and funny sounds with his dad's and mom's help of course. His cwazies lasted about 2 hours from 6-8 am every morning . It would start with him lying by himself cooing and babbling to himself (which I thought was the best)...until dad or mom would swoop him up and he would almost be vibrating in excitement when he knew we were coming to pick him up. In his cwazies he seemed to be up for anything! So I might always struggle to enjoy life's greatness but I know I should because Chantal needs me to be me and Caius needs me to continue the cwazies, I know he would have .. so have fun with life and laugh and be a little cwazy. Do it for Caius . Try being a little cwazy with the people you love this Easter Sunday you will be surprised how fulfilling it is.

Love CAP